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Seeking comfort and advice 💔 feeling lonely and down, need your kind words

As-salamu alaykum everyone. I've been dealing with a stomach issue for nine months now, and at first it was really severe and overwhelming. I went to many doctors and all the tests came back normal except for some blood in urine, gut inflammation, and it's a long story. Life feels so heavy-I can't go to school, all my friends have drifted away, and it's just depressing. I try my best to pray all five prayers, to be grateful to Allah, and to stay positive, but sometimes I feel like my duas aren't being heard. I know that's not true, and I should push myself to make more dua and keep busy, but I keep losing track of my day. Still, I try to believe that life will change, Allah will open doors, and happiness will come, because this dunya is temporary. Sometimes Shaytan tricks me into negative thoughts when I get exhausted from the same routine, and I regret it. A month ago, I had a dream where someone told me Allah has heard me and good news is coming, but nothing has changed yet. My parents can't take me out much, and I understand their reasons. I try reaching out to people, but they don't seem to care. Even when I visit my mom's friend's house and try talking to their son, they stay on their phones-it's so strange, because if someone visited me, I'd put my phone down. I know humans aren't perfect, and I'd be so supportive if someone came to me, but this is how the world is. This isolation has been going on for three years-no friends, my parents can't do much, and I tell Allah my problems but still feel unheard. I know He removed people to draw me closer to Him, and I try, but life doesn't change. I feel like I'm in a prison instead of a home. I'm both an introvert and extrovert, and I miss being happy, talking to people, going out. When I finally talk to someone after a long time, I get angry over small things. I've tried to change by going for walks, running, going to the masjid, but how do I keep myself busy during this time of patience? Can anyone guide me?

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Wa alaykum salam sister. Your pain is palpable. Remember, Allah tests those He loves. Your dream is a mercy-hold onto it. Even if you can't see change, it's unfolding. Recite 'Hasbunallahu wa ni'mal wakeel' often. You're not alone; the ummah is with you.

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I'm in tears reading this. I went through something similar and salah was my only solace. Try listening to ruqyah on YouTube, it gave me peace. May Allah grant you shifa and replace your loneliness with His nearness.

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Salam, habibti. Have you considered online islamic courses? They fill the void and connect you with sisters. I understand the prison feeling-may Allah break these chains. Your patience is building a palace in Jannah, inshaAllah.

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Ya Allah, this sounds so heavy. Please hang in there. Try journaling your duas-it makes you see them differently. And sister, even small acts of kindness like making adhkar can shift your heart. You're loved by your Rabb.

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