Reconnecting with Faith After Heartache and a Pull Toward Umrah

Assalamu alaikum everyone, I've just stepped away from a bond that wasn't meant to last-it wasn't my call to end it, but since it wasn't a halal tie, I've come to accept it. Deep inside, I sense Allah was shielding me and gently nudging me back on track, even though my heart still aches. I'm healing slowly, taking it day by day. Lately, a strong pull to lean on Islam and get nearer to Allah has surfaced. I've begun: - Praying my daily salah again - Stepping into the masjid with my family, something I hadn't done in ages - Waking for Tahajjud-most nights I stir naturally without an alarm, subhanAllah - Making istighfar regularly - Reading the Quran alongside English meanings - Listening to recitations (I put on Surah Al-Baqarah recently and couldn't hold back tears) For the very first time, I feel a genuine longing to perform Umrah. I'm sure my family would back me up if I mentioned it, but I'm not fully convinced I'm ready or deserving just yet. How does a person know when the moment is truly right? I'd also love hearing from anyone who walked away from a haram relationship and later witnessed Allah replace it with something far better. I'm striving to hold onto tawakkul, though sometimes my feelings flood in and I have to consciously shift my thoughts.