From Jesus to Allah: My Story of Being Saved

Assalamu Alaikum. This is a bit heavy and mentions some tough stuff like abuse and suicidal thoughts, so please be careful if that's a trigger. It's been a few months now, and I wanted to share how I went from praying to Jesus to praying to Allah. I'll try to keep it brief. I didn't grow up in a religious home. My dad was abusive and struggled with alcohol, and my escape was going to Bible studies with friends at a local soup kitchen. I guess you could say that's where I first connected with faith, but honestly, I never really felt it deep in my soul until I turned to Allah. I've dealt with severe depression for decades, and the last two years were some of the darkest. I was having hundreds, sometimes over a thousand, suicidal thoughts a day-it was all I could think about. I pleaded with Jesus for months, saying if he didn't help me, I would end my life. On April 25th, I was ready to go through with it. I prayed for over an hour, begging Jesus for help, but nothing. At the last moment, in desperation, I just said "Allah"-not expecting anything or anyone to hear me or care. And in that instant, I stopped crying and felt absolute relief, love, and comfort. It was so peaceful. Now I'm down to maybe one or two suicidal thoughts a day, which is incredible compared to before. Allah saved me, Alhamdulillah. I won't lie though-sometimes I fear He might abandon me like I felt Jesus did. But deep down, I know I was never meant to pray to Jesus; my path was always towards Allah. Since finding Allah, I've been reading the Quran and slowly trying to adjust my life to align with Islam. I'm taking baby steps. It's especially hard because my parents are extremely anti-Muslim, and I'm not sure how to tell them. We're already on thin ice, and it might lead to no contact. I could really use some advice on that. Also, I don't think there's a mosque near me, so if anyone knows good online resources or lectures, I'd really appreciate it. My main goal now is to be a good person and help others as much as I can, insha'Allah, for the sake of Allah. JazakAllah khair for reading.