Feeling stuck on this decision

I want to stop this thing, to end it all. The reasons might feel like nothing to some people but I've had enough, every tiny thing pushes me over. But I don't want to take my life, I know it's haram and I know I'll hurt my family more than anything, but I just can't take it anymore. I'd hate to blame someone for this but I feel like there's a certain someone who's always part of the reasons that push me over and I don't know if they're too oblivious to see what they're doing or what. It's a freaking pattern and it always takes a toll on me, this person always comes over and does something to instigate altercations and I'm always in the middle of it and every single time it's like this. I want help but I don't know how to ask สำหรับ it but that's also looked down on and I'm pretty sure. Or as attention seeking, but idk I just don't know how to get out of all this without ending my life. It's either that or keep on living with this constant fear and anxiety and whatever this all is.