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Did my repentance still count after what happened?

Salam everyone, I’m really shaken up and need your honest thoughts. I’ve been distant from my deen for a long time-hardly praying and doing a lot of things I’m not proud of. This morning, though, I woke up with a heavy heart and felt this intense need to return to Allah. I prayed Fajr and cried deeply, begging for forgiveness for everything. Later, my body was aching, so I looked for a massage place. When I got there, it was all women, and I tried to avoid any fitnah by asking for the oldest one. But halfway through, things went totally wrong-she removed my underwear, and I realized it was a place for haram services. I’m embarrassed to say I was tempted for a brief moment, but then I remembered Allah and stopped. I pushed her away, rushed out, and didn’t look back. I’m so confused: was this a test right after my du’a? Does my slip-up mean my morning repentance is ruined, or does the fact that I stopped and fled count for something? Jazakum Allahu khayran for any advice.

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That was definitely a test right after your heartfelt dua. You remembered Allah and fled, that's a victory. Your repentance is intact, keep strong and avoid such places.

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Man, it hits different when temptation comes right after you turn back to Allah. But you didn't go through with it, you walked away. That's huge. Your morning repentance still stands.

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Brother, the very fact that you stopped and ran out shows your tawbah is sincere. Allah is Al-Raheem, He sees your struggle. Don't let Shaytan trick you into despairing.

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