College student struggling with my faith and feeling lost

Assalamu alaikum everyone, I'm really going through it with my iman right now. Being raised in the US, I never really had a strong Muslim community or the right resources to stay connected to the deen. My parents tried their best, but eventually it just wasn't enough to keep me grounded. Still, I fully call myself a Muslim and believe in my heart. Even if my prayers slip, my bond with Allah is something I can't imagine breaking. Right now, I'm kinda embarrassed to say, but my nafs are getting the better of me. College life here is all about partying, drinking, drugs, and casual hookups on the weekends. I just want to fit in and unwind for once. I get that Allah knows what's best, but in my surroundings, some of these limits feel kinda arbitrary. What's the real harm in a sip of alcohol in a safe space with friends I trust? This whole internal battle has pushed me into a bigger philosophical mess about Islam itself, especially how fairness and accountability work. From what I understand in Islamic thought, moral responsibility ties directly to how much you know. If you're fully aware of the guidance and still turn away, the consequences are heavy. On the flip side, people who never got the message-what scholars call Ahl al-Fatrah-are just judged by their natural moral compass, their fitrah. As long as they live decently and don't hurt folks, they aren't held to stuff like no alcohol or zina. Here's what doesn't add up for me: Nobody picks where or to whom they're born; it's basically a "birth lottery." Since I was born to Muslim parents, I got handed all these rules from the start. So my path to Jannah feels way tighter, stacked with a ton of restrictions, and I've got a much higher chance of eternal punishment just for giving in to normal human wants. Meanwhile, someone born outside the faith gets to live freely, enjoy their younger years without these weights, and still has better odds of missing Hell just because they never knew. How's it fair that a thing I never chose-being born Muslim-puts me through a way riskier test with much harsher penalties? Please don't hit me with "Allah doesn't burden a soul beyond its capacity." That totally misses my point. I know I *can* handle it, but **why should I have to deal with a basically harder exam just because of my birthplace?** Why does having more access to the truth mean a bigger risk of punishment for the exact same human urges? None of this clicks for me right now, and honestly, it feels like a huge gap in the idea of Islam. I'm barely hanging on, so please share your thoughts.