Anxiety about community talk

Assalamu alaikum everyone. I embraced Islam this past February. For most of my life-26 years-I was trapped in terrible circumstances, addiction was a heavy burden, and the kindness I’ve found in the deen and from fellow brothers has meant the world to me. I don’t want to jeopardize this newfound security. Lately, my PTSD has been flaring up badly. I’m really anxious that people might be gossiping about me in the community, especially since in my history, those who hurt me would track where I went and who I was with. I’m striving to be a good Muslim and I see myself progressing, alhamdulillah. My last slip with substances was on March 2nd, barely three weeks after I said my shahada. I keep constant watch over my actions-I want to keep improving. I’m scared of what we call in my Latin upbringing 'chisme,' that talk behind your back. I overthink every glance. I’m even fearful of visiting the masjid, which should be my refuge. I always try to do what’s upright, but what if others don’t see it that way? Do they think I’m corrupt? That I’m just an addict? How might they interpret my behavior, especially if they know my background? If a brother or sister, or even a youngster, spotted me doing something completely innocent-like being at a pharmacy buying condoms for halal intimacy with my wife, or wearing casual summer clothing-I feel that safety net could vanish. Does this kind of judgment happen? How can I address my worries with a brother? The world is already harsh enough for those who’ve survived exploitation, and it’s extra tough for men in this situation.