6 Years of Endless Trials – Seeking Your Duas and Advice

Assalamu alaikum everyone. I'm reaching out to share my struggles, hoping for your heartfelt duas and any advice you can offer. For six years now, it's been one hardship after another, and I honestly don't know why this keeps happening or how I can turn things around. Even my family and friends have noticed – just when I think things can't get worse, they do, and it's always something extreme. Six years ago, I finished college and planned to go to grad school, but my home life became so toxic that it wrecked my mental and physical health. I was constantly criticized and made into a punching bag, leaving me a shell of myself with severe anxiety and panic attacks. Around that time, I met someone who betrayed me in the worst way. He lied, hid things, and eventually left for haram, revealing himself to be a kafir. One day he just messaged me saying he never wanted to speak again, blocked me, moved away, and I found out he was in another relationship the whole time. He had talked about marriage, and I can't understand why someone would take advantage of my kindness and try to hurt me so deeply. Alhamdulillah he's gone now, but dealing with someone like that for years drained me mentally and emotionally – I was pouring into someone who hated me. For four years after graduation, I couldn't find a job. When I finally got one, it turned out to be incredibly toxic. Everyone in my department mistreated me, and I had constant anxiety at work, like my arm going numb and chronic migraines. The VPs, HR, and directors all knew what I was going through, but nothing changed. I knew I needed to leave, but it was my first job after so long, so I stuck it out. Eventually, I suffered severe injuries in my personal life that affected my ability to work and my cognitive function. Just when I started feeling better about six months later, I developed a severe eye condition in January 2026 (may Allah protect us all). The months since have been agonizing. Doctors mishandled my case, making it worse. I have nerve loss in my cornea, and my eyes and face feel like they're being shocked with electricity. These past eight months have been the most painful of my life. I ran from doctor to doctor, had every test done, and alhamdulillah I'm finally on medication. During this time, I found another job that I really liked, but after a few weeks, my eyes were hurting so much that I had to take medical leave. When my leave ends, I either have to return to work (which I'd love, since the environment was good) or I'll be let go. My health condition is extreme – it limits my ability to go outside, look at lights, use screens, and more. I've suffered so much, and I had so many dreams and goals. Every time I try to work toward them, something bad happens. I don't know what to do. I just want to recover from this painful condition and make something of my life. Any advice would be truly appreciated. Jazakum Allahu khayran for reading. May Allah ease all our hardships.